In a few hours, I will pass through a portal. It is a portal I have thought about all of my adult life. It is a portal that became more clearly visible and approachable for me about a year and a half ago. I do not know what is on the other side of the portal. I may find myself where I started, like T.S. Eliot in the Four Quartets. I may find myself having crossed a threshold that Joseph Campbell talked about.

I expect the crossing to be overwhelming, to emotionally draining. I expect the crossing to change me. I don’t yet know what the path on the other side of the portal will be. Will it be pretty much the same path I’ve been on? Will there be new goals, new tasks?

Update: I have stepped through to portal to find myself disoriented, in a place that seems very similar to where I was as I approached the portal, while at the same time, completely different. The portal appears to have vanished, and stunned, I look around trying to regain my bearings before taking the next step on my journey.