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Thoughts about Blogging the AGPA Annual Meeting

As I get ready for the AGPA annual meeting, there is some discussion on the mailing list of group psychotherapists that I’m on about a blogger being there. Dr. Bob, who has posted comments on the blog here, has asked an important question. How do the group psychotherapists attending the annual meeting feel about being blogged about? It relates back to an earlier discussion about members of the list using material from the group. It relates to boundaries. It relates to narcissism.

For some, the old quote from Oscar Wilde may come to mind,
“The only thing worse than being talked about is not being talked about.”

For others, perhaps including people who have talked about introversion on the list recently, the opposite holds true.

Some people have some very practical concerns. Can blogs, along with traditional media, be used to elevate the perception of group psychotherapy as a beneficial form of treatment for some patients?

Others may have reactions based on fears about the ambiguous nature of blogs. Within the blogging and journalism communities there are lots of discussions about exactly what blogging is. Is it journalism? What sort of ethics apply to bloggers? Is it the same as applies to journalists?

This leads to complicated decisions by organizations about whether or not they will provide media credentials to bloggers. More and more organizations are, but it remains hit and miss. Since I've been credentialed by many major organizations, getting credentials for me seems easier, but this ties back to the credentialing process and the issues of 'Am I good enough' that seem to emerge in every field.

I will note that my access to the AGPA annual meeting will be essentially the same as that of any other reporter. It might be a little higher based on the trust I've established with some group psychotherapists on the mailing list, but on the other hand, I am committed to journalistic ethics and trying not to damage that trust.

All of this said, I am very interested in hearing people's concerns about a blogger in their midst at the conference. It is something that I have to face where ever I go, and I trust the reactions here will be open and honest and perhaps give me useful insights which will help me be a better blogger.

Most of the above, I sent in a slightly different format to the list.

Dr. Bob responded (and I’m quoting him with permission),

I guess I see bloggers as like critics. Or, more neutrally, like reporters.

So I feel anxious. Self-conscious. Will he pan me? Or give me a thumbs-up? Or not mention me at all? The issue isn't just his opinion, but the opinions of those he influences. And it's not just about me, but about my work. So it's complicated. But we share some interests, and I've read his blog (and posted to it), so overall I'm hopeful. Expectant.

It is interesting to read Bob’s reaction. I don’t usually think about my opinions as being able to cause others anxiety, but I guess I can see that.

There are still a few weeks to go before the AGPA conference, but I am hoping that during these coming weeks I can explore more of my own thoughts about going the reactions of others and learn more from all of it.

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Fiona and Barack

As many of you know, Kim and I have been loyal Edwards supporters, traveling to New Hampshire, coordinating activities here in Connecticut. When Sen. Edwards suspended his campaign, we were contacted by just about everyone. Obama supporters across the county sent us emails about why we should switch to Obama. Political dignitaries in Connecticut called us up asking us to support Clinton. We even got an email a Gravel supporter.

Many of our friends said they were going to vote for Sen. Edwards anyway, simply to make a statement, or in hopes of getting him more delegates so that he can have a greater say in the discussion about the issues that matter. I’ve voted that way before. I was glad to vote for Gov. Dean in 2004, even though he had ended his campaign and my symbolic vote was unlikely to get much attention, let alone a delegate. I voted for Tsongas back in 1992, even though he was, for all practical purposes out of the race by then.

Yet every election is different. I have mixed feelings about Sen. Obama, just as I do about Sen. Clinton. So, today, I walked into the voting booth with Fiona, still struggling how I should vote. I turned to her and asked if she thought we could still make a difference in our country without voting for Sen. Edwards.

She turned to me and said, “Yes, We Can.” I smiled. Four years ago, Gov. Dean delivered a message of hope and he is still making an important difference in our country. Deval Patrick took up the message of hope with a campaign slogan, “Together, we can”, and he is making a difference.

While I believe that Sen. Edwards message of hope was more substantive than that of Sen. Obama, in the end, I voted for the future and not for the past. I hope Fiona was right, because it is her future that I voted for.
(Cross posted at MyLeftNutmeg)

1983 Journal: Jan 11-13

More updates from 25 years ago:

January 11, 1983: Charting the unexplored world of the mind. The maps used change the territory. Where roads are perceived to be, there thoughts will travel and roads appear even if none where there. Tolstoy, Dickens, work, church, politics, and this writing itself maps. Is one “Truer” than the other? I do not know, yet I feel the confusion of when these maps conflict. How far do I carry these solipsistic thoughts? Only until I know they lead away from the goal I aim at. And yet I know not that goal, let alone which path leads there.

January 12, 1983: My struggles with mental exploration continue as I listen to church folk songs, read letter from old college friends, and discussion the future of the prayer group. Rich made an interesting comment about my coming out of depression. Linda and I are to get together for dinner soon. New question: Do people/Will I get to the point where I stop struggling so much? Emotional exhaustion.

January 13, 1983: Chat with Scott – Philosophical Thoughts…
Haiku Cappuccino

Robin
Smashes the flower
On her cannoli
With a fork

Transcending through writing. Haley’s comet rushes its inspiration. Train whistles doppler by. Peace.

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Vision quests, Monomyths and blogging a group psychotherapy conference

It is the last Sunday of Epiphany, a season in the Christian calendar where we reflect on the Epiphanies we receive about our relationship with God after the celebration of God coming amongst us as a newborn baby at Christmas. The readings were about people heading up to mountaintops to experience God; Moses when he received the Ten Commandments and Peter, James and John when they experienced the transfiguration of Jesus.

Father Peter has spent time with the Lakota Indians and compared these experiences with those of Lakota’s going on a vision quest. It made me think of the monomyth, or hero’s journey as described by Joseph Campbell in The Hero with a Thousand Faces. In the monomyth, as well as in the stories of vision quests and other trips to mountaintops, the story starts with a call to adventure, leads to some experience of the divine or transcendent, and then the hero returns to share the results of the experience in one way or another.

The season of Epiphany ends on Tuesday, as everyone cleans out their larders with a Shrove or Fat Tuesday, Mardi Gras, or carnival before entering into a period of fasting and prayer called Lent. This year, for 22 states in the United States, there will be a primary on Fat Tuesday. I could go off into a long digression about the primary and Fat Tuesday, but I have something else to write about today.

You see, over the past several months, friends of mine from a mailing list of group psychotherapists have been encouraging me to attend the annual meeting of the American Group Psychotherapist Association. Years ago I hired a management consultant to help me navigate some of the political waters of a large matrix managed international bank I worked at. Her training had been in the psychoanalytical study of groups, particularly within the Tavistock Group Relations tradition. I’ve been to a couple Group Relations conferences and several social dreaming matrices that have grown out of these. While I’ve seen the power of groups to be destructive, I do believe in the power of groups to heal, to provide insights, and, well, we shall see what else this coming month.

My whole experience leading up to attending the AGPA annual meeting has felt very much like the beginning of a monomyth. It has started with the call to adventure, friends urging me to attend the annual meeting. I tried half heartedly to find some way in which it could happen. I am not a group psychotherapist. I’m not studying to become one. I don’t have the money to afford attending. Were there volunteer opportunities, scholarships, chances to be on a panel, or media credentials possible? Each option, along with various interesting side diversions ended up in a dead end, so I finally ended up sending out a message that I wasn’t attending.

Then, at the last moment, I received an email from a dear friend that included the address of the public affairs director for the AGPA. It was like the magic amulet a hero often receives on his journey. The next thing I knew, I had a press pass, dinner plans and several people to meet with.

So, now I am on the journey. I don’t want to go in with expectations that are too high. It is an annual meeting. I’ve been to many different types of annual meetings. There are experiential components and I’ve been to large and small experiential groups before. What is different is that I am attending as a blogger. How will I fit together the role of an experiential participant with the role of an observer and reporter? Will this be a vision quest or monomyth, or just another chance to blog and see some friends?

Perhaps a lot of it is in the approach. Perhaps too many of us too rarely look for the opportunities for transformational moments in our daily lives. So, following the old political adage, I will hope for the best, be prepared for the worst, and take what I get.

1983 Journal: Jan 8-10

Continuing on with my journal from 1983…

January 8, 1983: A lazy day of anticipation. Anticipating Kate’s party tonight, and travels in April. Prairie Home Companion. Speaking of fear of failure. Belief in things that don’t exists. I believe in Unicorns, elves and the like, and Powder Milk Biscuits. I believe in imaginary manifestations of hope. How is that different from believing in true love etc.?

January 9, 1983: Theology changes at Crace, talk with Fritz. Last night, long talk with Shirley. Talk with Ken. Travel plans being laid. I sit, smoke my pipe, drink my scotch, listen to violin concertos and read Tolstoy. I look forward to drinking scotch with Ken. Bob is starting a class on wealth and poverty. The old covenant provided for great wealth, provided the poor were taken care of. I could enjoy being a great philanthropist. This marks my struggle. Yes, we are to enjoy God’s creation, but not at the expense of others. I too often am concerned with the troubles of others and myself to be joyful.

January 10, 1983: Nicholas Nickelby on TV. That dark depressing Industrialized England of Dickens. I find I long for physical contact. Also work, nothing interesting going on. Hacking around, I think I want to learn PLS and write software. Writing continues to be dry. Good night.

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