The Process - Sept 2nd Update
Submitted by Aldon Hynes on Wed, 09/02/2015 - 20:50Today, I received an email, which said in part:
Bishop Douglas, a few members of the Commission on Ministry and I look forward to meeting with you and Amanda next Thursday (September 10) at 4pm at The Commons.
It is the next step in a process that began a little over three months ago. Or maybe not. Maybe it began forty years ago when I was still in high school, or at some other time. Whatever we consider the starting point, it moved to a new level back in May.
It is a process that is deeply personal. I have spoken with a few people here and there, to friends that are priests or who would understand my journey and this process. Slowly, as things have become clearer, I have started to share more and more what is going on, with more and more people.
It is also a community process. I run into other people who can offer me guidance. I run into other people on similar journeys. I have been writing about the process, and writings call for an audience.
I am exploring the possibility of seeking Holy Orders, of becoming a priest. Am I hearing God’s call to me properly? What does God have in store for me? At what point does it become real enough to talk publicly about?
As part of the process, I’ve been asked to write a spiritual autobiography and an essay about how I “anticipate, as an ordained leader, helping the Episcopal Church in Connecticut be more faithful to God’s Mission” for the meeting which happens on the 10th.
I was thinking, perhaps I would wait until after the meeting to post about it. Yet by writing my spiritual autobiography and essay and committing to the meeting, I have taken important steps on this journey. I believe it is a journey God is calling me to. I feel that I need to talk with others about the journey. Talking about the journey is part of the journey. As a participant observer in the process, perhaps I am meant to leave breadcrumbs along the way for others exploring similar journeys.
There is so much more that I’ve written. So much more that needs to be written. Yet for now, I’ll leave it as is. If you are inclined to pray for me on my journey, thank you. If you are on a similar journey and want to compare notes, let me know.
Buen Camino.
Favorite Religious Quotes?
Submitted by Aldon Hynes on Tue, 09/01/2015 - 20:12Donald Trump’s non-answer to the question about his favorite Bible verse has generated a lot of interesting discussions online. It made me think of a verse that has been getting a lot of discussion online recently, Matthew 4:9
"All this I will give you," he said, "if you will bow down and worship me."’
Somehow, this seems like a quote that captures Donald Trump to a T. Of course, those who have been paying attention to the discussion about Matthew 4:9 may find this all the more apt. If we read this verse in context, we have:
Again, the devil took Him to a very high mountain and showed Him all the kingdoms of the world and their glory; and he said to Him, "All these things I will give You, if You fall down and worship me." Then Jesus said to him, "Go, Satan! For it is written, 'YOU SHALL WORSHIP THE LORD YOUR GOD, AND SERVE HIM ONLY.'"
So, it made me think, what if someone had asked me that on the campaign trail. Psalm 19:14 comes to my mind:
May these words of my mouth and this meditation of my heart
be pleasing in your sight,
Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer.
These are words I wish more politicians would pray. Other verses that come to my mind are John 1:1
In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.
John 3:6
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
Or even James 1:5
If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.
Of course, all of this is focused on the Judeo-Christian tradition. Some of my friends are Muslim and often quote the Quran. I’m not sure what they would say, or for that matter, what favorite religious quotes from other traditions would be.
What are yours?
Back to ...
Submitted by Aldon Hynes on Mon, 08/31/2015 - 20:03Today, I returned to work after two weeks’ vacation. Fiona returned to school after summer vacation. Now, I’m home and wondered what is it that we are all going back to? I attended a bunch of meetings, answered a bunch of emails, and did various tasks. Fiona seemed to have a good day at school.
Now, I sit at my computer, and try to write. What shall I write? How have I helped people today? How might my words help other people? What sort of progress have I made on my life journey? Or, should I just cut myself some slack?
I spent some time looking online at the state of theological education in MOOCs. I didn’t find much of interest.
So, perhaps it is time to just rest and wait.
Beach Worship
Submitted by Aldon Hynes on Sun, 08/30/2015 - 08:24My Beloved gently runs His fingers through my hair
in the breeze on the beach
as He calls me
constantly
in the rumble of the waves.
Overhead,
the birds fly
like seraphim
proclaiming His Love.
I look to the sea -
His love is even more vast
than the endless horizon.
Yet there is a pile of bottles and cans
that someone has left in the sand
that need to be cleaned up.
On the Road with Christian Wiman
Submitted by Aldon Hynes on Sat, 08/29/2015 - 10:58I set my copy of “My Bright Abyss” by Christian Wiman down on the cluttered table in the camper. I looked out across the campground. The rain had passed, and hopefully the fog would lift soon. I’ve been reading this book, slowly, a few pages at a time, on and off since last May. How great it would be to write a book like this, or perhaps like The Seven Storey Mountain by Thomas Merton.
Friends have suggested that I write some sort of autobiography, growing up in a college town, heading off to college, studying philosophy, dropping out early, living in an old spice factory turned into artist loft in New York City, consulting at Bell Labs in the early 80s, spending eight months hitchhiking across America and Europe, living on a sailboat in the Hudson River, working on Wall Street, leaving it to work in social media, running for office. There’s plenty of material, but perhaps not the great writing style of Wiman or Merton, or the spiritual angst.
Maybe, instead of writing about myself, I could write about the people I met on my journeys, men in nursing homes earning to be free, victims of domestic violence, people who had lost loved ones way too early to cancer, men on the street that that have struggled with mental illness, substance abuse, joblessness. Yet would this reinforce a narrative about God working with those who have suffered greatly or struggled with God, but not with the common people?
The words of Ralph Waldo Emerson come to mind,
Meek young men grow up in libraries believing it their duty to accept the views which Cicero, which Locke, which Bacon have given, forgetful that Cicero, Locke, and Bacon were only young men in libraries when they wrote these books.
What about those who, to borrow words of Henry David Thoreau, “lead lives of quiet desperation”. Where is God for them?
I’ve always loved those travel stories, perhaps best epitomized by the television show, “Then Came Bronson”, where a disillusioned newspaper reporter, heads out on his motorcycle to find himself, and finds himself helping meek young men leading lives of quiet desperation or captured by Charles Kuralt “On the Road”.
Can I play Bronson or Kuralt in telling stories of God’s grace in daily life? Can I bring in a touch of the depth of Wiman or Merton? Can I set it against the backdrop of Emerson or Thoreau?
What are the stories of God’s grace being revealed in the daily lives of people in main stream churches in America struggling to reveal God’s Love to a people that increasingly are losing interest?